Scotland forever!

So i had originally planned to do a post about the trip daily but the Internet in Scotland is not as easy to be found as I had hoped for. I believe I connected two or three (or more) times to check in on foursquare. Lol. Well I tried many beers and some whiskey too. I saw things that I am not going to see anywhere else, such as stone circles, and cairns, and more castles than you'd like to see in a week. I am sorry to go and happy to return home all at the same time.
Well i am sitting here waiting for my flight to board in Scotland, I will finish  this later.

OK so BACK UP YOUR STUFF because I wrote half of my trip and then accidentally hit one wrong key and wiped out the entire blog of my trip to Scotland. -_- WE ARE NOT AMUSED. 

The first WOW moment wasn't actually in Scotland but in London.  Let me tell you that it was very strange to look around and find yourself in a place full of sight you have seen so regularly on tele.  DR. WHO for instance it is really weird to see so many places your recognize from the show like that big ferris wheel on the river or big ben, or even that hospital that disappeared, the palace, so very ery peculiar to see these things.  

SCOTLAND 

DAY 1

Well the first interesting observation that I had was actually flying into Edinburgh, I noticed that everyone was reading, books, papers, magazines, or reading on their phones, ipads and pc's too.  That was weird you don't see so much reading going in the US we would be wise to do some more of this I thought.  Then the steward (yes a man) gave me candy.  :)  He is now my friend.  Oh and their little desserts and what not have much less sugar in them than ours and another thing that delight me is that everything tells you how much energy is in it.  It is much nicer to about how much energy your consuming than calories, just saying.  

Okay so I touch down in Edinburgh but I don't go to see it because we have a breakneck 7 day tour of Scotland to execute and I spent a week on google maps planning it all out, but since I don't have any way to access data other than free wi-fi along the way the plans sorta go out the window in a way.  :)  Hey I love adventure, bring it on!!! 

So we hope straight into the the car and I decide that I will be helpy helperton and be the navigator for my dad, this was maybe the most annoying part of my trip and I found out I am a bit stressed out in this role, but over all it is funny.  So let us talk about driving in the UK. 

IT IS CRAZY!

Oh did you want a description?  The car was wider than almost all the lanes we traveled in, the roads are extremely narrow and everyone seems to be going a million miles an hour.  I always expected it to be in km like in Canada but nope its all in miles, wow confused.  Anyway the roundabouts are kinda like being on a ride, but the difference being that getting off is a game and in this game if you manage to correctly understand all the signs with their bizarre arrows pointing vaguely in any direction you never really know if your lost or on your way somewhere!!  

We got lost more than we didn't. 

It was pretty funny and fun and sometimes not as funny and fun. 

So Day 1 we get to Linlithgow and this my first view an old city, and I mean old in the sense that I am from the USA and everything here is less than 300 years old and in some places old is 80 years old!  So this place is much older.  Linlithgow was started with a manor house in the 12th century.  I went to see they remains of it's palace which was built in the 15th and 16th centuries and burned out in 1746.  

Okay so I admit I accidentally deleted 90% of my photos from Scotland, oh well, they are backed up in my brain luckily.   Here is the interior of a church on the castle grounds too. 

Next we moved on towards Glasgow and headed north to Balloch Castle, this was in repair but I also saw the oldest rhododendron ever.  See!

We drive up Lock Lommond, it was raining heavily by this time and I have no pictures of one of the most beautiful lochs in Scotland of my own but instead will share someone elses with you. This picture was taken by wanderingsoul @ deviant art.  This was much like the day I saw it so enjoy! 

Next we reach the wee town of Arrochar we stayed at a small B&B much like we would do the entire trip.  Let me say most of the way to survive in Scotland seems to be around owning a B&B, there are many of them.  This being my first set my expectations low.  The family was nice, but the place wasn't extremely comfy, but ok.  The beds were lumpy, not used to that but I think the standards for beds must be lower in Scotland than other places.  Some interesting things were using tiny little hot water heating units in the showers that instantly heated your water.  The toilets were weird. LOL, what they were!  Okay also, there buildings were all very old and some were gorgeous, some were not as gorgeous.  This place was RIGHT on the highway like 3 feet away, and it was right on the Loch Long.  

I went for my first Scottish meal at the Village Inn, it was delicious, I had Neeps and Tatties and Haggis and it was seriously so damn good I could of died and went to heaven right there, but instead it got better because the beer was delicious!!  Funny part was that upon entering the place there was sign letting you know that you should not get upset about their poor service.  Something like "Please do not get upset about our poor service, it may ruin your experience and noone wants that."  Hahaha.  Well, gotta love Scottish honesty, realism, and sarcasm.  

DAY 2:

 It snowed!  I woke up to snow.  We then traveled to many places around one of the oldest most ancient areas in Scotland.  From Inveraray to Oban on the coast.  The first stop was to see Loch Eck, then on to see castle Lachlan which was a piece of crap, and its graveyard.  Then we got pulled over by a road block set up just to catch us and threatened to be taken to jail if we broke the limit again.
Let me tell you the speed limit signs are confusing when it isn't a number its circles and dots.  It took until the 2nd day before we even figured half of the signs out!
Okay back on the road to go see those damn Campbell's and their bloody castle.  Here is is. Pretty nice!

Next was the cute little town of Inveraray.  Sorry lost those pictures.  So instead of a picture I will tell you a little story.  The Campbells were dicks.  Why you may ask?  Well look at all the ruined castles everywhere, it was probably the Campbells.  :)  No seriously my family actually used to sing a song called the Campbells are coming and it wasn't to celebrate them.  

Okay another small bit of information and I don't know why they are doing it but hey guys clear cutting your trees off your lands for a quick buck is a huge fucking mistake, KNOCK THAT SHIT OFF!   Thank goodness it wasn't happening everywhere but it was sadly happening in some of the most beautiful places. 

The next place we stopped was in the valley on the way to Oban near Kilmartin which had sites of some of the most ancient ruins, standing stones, cairns, hieroglyphs and the like in Argyll Scotland.  Just amazing!! 

A hill!!!

Cairn and stone circle

This photgraph is an aerial not taken by me ignore what google said lol 

So it takes FOREVER to get to Oban because we also stopped to see a radical castle.  It was called Carnassarie towerhouse and was ruined in the late 17th century.  I believe the first Gaelic/English bible was written here but don't quote me.

Then FINALLY we made it to a very cute coastal city named Oban.  I ate my first Fish N Chips.  This is an interesting meal, it is white breaded deep fried fish, with peas and sometimes ham, bread, tea, and potatoes.  Not much like our fish n chips but not much unlike it either!  But better!                                                                                                          Oh and this one pictured is actually from a different place on the coast and it was Shrimp (another variation).

Yes they had a Colosseum, it was built for an art fair I believe.  

Inside the Colosseum there was a fluffy bunny.  That walk was murder after a long day of sight seeing and hikes to other castles and such but curiosity got the best of me and I hiked to the top of this town to see what it was there for. 

DAY 3:

We stayed at a very nice place here in Oban the bed was sooooo soft I didn't want to get up the next morning but I did because Scotland wouldn't wait for me to sleep in today I had to go to Loch Ness and go see the Glen Finnan Monument dammit!    Hey and I accidentally found that that the Jacobite Steam train was the train seen in Harry Potter chugging along the trestle. Yeah how cool is that?  Yup. 

So this place was interesting it was an ancient pictish standing stone I happened to see coming down a hill and after we parked and walked in, there we found ruins and several cairns, very cool!

Castle Stalker north of  Oban

Ben Nevis

Glen Finnan Monument

"The Glenfinnan Monument situated here at the head of Loch Shiel was erected in 1815 to mark the place where PrinceCharles Edward Stuart ("Bonnie Prince Charlie") raised his standard, at the beginning of the 1745 Jacobite Rising." (wiki knowledge).





How about that train!!  This is a picture from the telegraph in the UK because again, I lost most of my pics somewhere for now if not forever, but yep we all know how to get Hogwarts now!

Ok after this we saw Loch Ness and went and saw some interesting stuff at the Loch Ness Exhibition Center, I recommend the stop it is factual and fun oh and DO have some coffee here it was freaking AMAZING.  We decided to skip Urquhart Castle as it was such a tourist trap area to be in and we had seen so many castles and still had several others planned.  So I took a few crappy pics of Loch Ness but I lost them anyway so I will now share someone else's effort with you. 

This is from Castle Stuart's website, we tried to go look at this castle but it was private and too hard to see.

Okay finally we arrived to a very very nice manor house that used to help run part of the Stuart Estate and stayed there.  By the way most places have what is called a family room made up of a queen and one twin bed and this was what every place we stayed in was like B&B wise anyway.  I took pictures of this place but again I am unable to find them if I do I will add them later but trust me it was very grand.  It was called the Morayston House. We had a few hours of light left so we figured we pop over to eat at the Culloden Moor (yeah weird place to eat, on an infamous battleground).  I had a minced burger and they are always served with this crazy thick coleslaw AND chips! 

We then we accidentally found out way to the most mind blowing site I saw in Northern Scotland known as the Clava Cairns near the River Nairn.  

The three chambered cairns, each surrounded by a ring of standing stones, form one of the most impressive prehistoric sites in Scotland. Several of the stones have carved cup-marks.

Here is a not crappy pic taken by: lundinandlargo.blogspot 

I hope to find my pictures, they were only taken on my S3 but still they were mine.  This site was abosultely remarkable and even more in the fading light of the day, so magical, so wonderfully powerful and eerie.  No answers either, just unbelievably awesome sight to behold. The sheer size of these cairns and the stone circles surrounding them was interesting, something of interest was that there were stone circles of many varieties in the area which would indicate that this area had been used for thousands of years as a site to build these cairns or circles for whatever purpose they held burial, worship, calendar... who knows.  But it sort of cataloged the evolution of these circles.  Very unique and I highly recommend the visit if you are visiting Culloden Moor. 

This is some info from megaliths.net

Pic taken from: lundinandlargo.blogspot 

DAY 3: Next up was visiting the Culloden Moor again in the morning to check out the center.  Well we had a long way to go and I wish we would have went on the tour however we skipped it and it was raining so horribly we didn't walk out on the moor, but who needs wars tours I guess, plus I studied every inch of this battle so much in research for a book that I suppose I didn't need too. 

Then we drove trough the highlands which really reminded me of home funny enough.  We stopped at the highest altitude distillery in Scotland to enjoy some Dalwhinnie Whiskey and bought some little bottles I still haven't found. 

Then we drove on to Killiecrankie where we had a nice hike to see the spot where a guy jumped the 18 foot gap in the river to escape Jacobite soldiers, pretty crazy.  It started to rain again so we didn't stick around long. But I saw a train pass by on this bridge.  There was a hilarious quote up there where he talks about his shoe falling into the river but I can't recall it now. 

Next up we stopped at our clan castle Ogilvy's Castle Blair. It was BEAUTIFUL and touring it was fun.  Some of the ancestors really looked familiar that was kinda weird.  This house was massive AND I bought some great Whiskey called Bruada made there locally and not available as an imported whiskey it was honey and sloe berries very very sweet and unique.  

Blair Castle

I had a tasty sandwich and haggis chips at Blair Castle!

Then on a random happenstance we saw a sign for a famous Chocolatier somewhere in the Scottish countryside and we did indeed visit this place and buy some chocolate. http://www.highlandchocolatier.com/ I must say it was good but not as amazing as the wording famous chocolatier invokes, I guess I have watched willy wonka too much.  

The shop was pretty neat. 

Next we traveled again through the country side into the center of Scotland, and it became just BEAUTIFUL!  Very rolling and green and kind of what I expected Scotland to look like.  We were scheduled to stay the next two days in this are and we got a bit side tracked on genealogy which I promise to NOT bore you with.  We stayed at a very nice older man's place, he doesn't really let new people come out his B&B these days, not since his wife passed away.  He usually only take repeat people but this time on a whim decided he hadn't seen any Americans for a while and took the reservation.  HE was a goofy old dude and told stories and was really quite the Scottish farmer and host. 

DAYS 4&5:  I really liked the two days there.  

We explored Blairgowrie, Coupar Angus, Kettins, Alyth and Meigle.  Met local country folk, ate good food and I even saw the grave of the man who wrote Peter Pan in Kirriemuir!  Saw Castle Glamis too.  This entire area felt close to me, I could tell this was where my family came from.  It was absolutely the best time of the trip as far as just enjoying the local sights and flavor.  During this I found a lot of neat pictish carved stones, these were often combined with the influence of Christian religion and they weer very unique, I saw Castles, found some family land, and interesting family ties in a few graveyards.  

Castle Glamis home of the Queen Mother in childhood.

 Town of Kirrimuir home of Sir Berrie author of Peter Pan

 A field outside Alyth

Village outside of Perth

 Bar in Alyth

Alyth, Alyth Burn

Had some amazing Scottish style Salmon at a place called the Old Cross Inn outside of Blairgowrie in Rattray.

DAY 6: My last full day in Scotland. 

Edinburgh, first we drove to the Castle or Tower house more accurately that we were staying in, it was Carberry tower.  

 Outside Alyth

 Perth

 On the way to Edinburgh tower on hillside, these are all over Scotland

It was awesome to be able to stay in and explore a castle!!  I seriously cannot even express all the childlike joy and wonder I had exploring this creepy ass place and let me tell you it scared the crap out of me!  I had nightmares all night long!! 

 Carberry Tower

Queen Mary's sitting room

My Knight in shining armor

So then we went to find the train to Edinburgh.  I was so impressed by the trains, they moved SO fast that I couldn't even snap a picture with the my S3 before they were already passed by us!!  Hauling ass my friends!  The next shock was coming out of the subway into Edinburgh itself.  Let me just say that as someone who grew up in rural 'merica we are easily amazed by the sheer size of cities anyways but when it is huge and heavy and gothic and mid-evil towers spiraling into the air with massive unbelievable bridges over your head and you understand the ages of these things and the city and its history it is unbelievable!!  It was magnificent!  Inspiring and I was awestruck. 

I came out of the tunnel from the subway and looked up into the sky to see this, it was absolutely huge and solid and stoic and so Scottish and yet so beautiful. 

                                                                                                                                                          This was the Sir Walter Scott Monument and I believe that it was something crazy like 600 steps to the top and back down, and yes I climbed to the biter end to be able to get a view of this insanely huge old city.

                                                                                                                                                                Beautiful Gargoyle on one of the spires towards the top of the Sir Walter Scott  monument. 

Views from the top of the monument of Edinburgh

 Make note of Castle Edinburgh at the top, easy to understand why this Castle was never taken.

Note: the glass roof in the bottom left, this was the subway/rail system, look at the bridge this is where I came out into the city.  Also fun fact this used to be a loch in which they drained and put all of this so that bridge did once cross water.  Also there is a saying that the cemetery that was at the shore of the lock in the center of town was called the "dead center" of town.  It is believed this is where his saying arose from. 

I had a fancy pants meal it was like a french/scottish experience.  It was very good, oh so damn good. It was in the Ballmoral Hotel.

 

Scottish Coffee with clotted cream (eeeew will never do it again)

I went on a bus tour of the city, it was the only way to see it in one day.  It was awesome, I got off on the royal mile and did some shopping, then got back on the bus to finish the tour.  I was very sad that Holyrood Palace was closed because some asshole priest had it closed on his visit because I have long read about this place and really wished I could have seen it myself.  

Scotland.

fin.

Boom and there's art!

The sun came out today and I decided to make a coaster with magazine pages, and some collage art page and carved a face on my mandarin, there's no stopping me!

So I watched this awesome movie called Safety not guaranteed. It was was funny and kinda wacky and fun. I would like to time travel, I have thought about this and since the likelihood of having The Doctor show up at my door is low, I hope I meet someone else who might have a time machine, hot tub works too. Just saying.... Yeah...

Wanna see my art? Yeah I'm sharing it just for you. Its not especially good or creative but it was nice to play around with creating something today.

Fantastic!

I have arrived! And why do I say this? Because I got a job! No not just a job but an actual career my little darlings! I have business cards, this is when you know your legit lol.
Haha but seriously, I am excited and look forward to the work I am doing and the people that I work with and for. I hope this will be what I was cut out for. ^_^
Okay enough of this boring stuff.

WTF are you doing!!!??

Well I will tell you what I am doing!  I am living in a little cave like a troll, working with juvenile delinquents (not in the cave I live in) at a youth ranch.... I just bought a new car (which I LOVE) It also got hit and is almost back to being what it was when I bought it.  I am currently saving money to move too some unknown location with mr. wonderful.  I hope it's a happy, warm, nice place.  I am freezing my ass off while I am typing this right now because, caves are cold, but at least I have the internet in here.

SEE!  Someone hurt my poor car.  Well its fixed now, almost completely a few minor details to tend too, but I'm driving the honda anyway because of the weather and the fact the mazda sucks in the snow, it has the wrong tires.  

Ok I have a dog now I drew eyebrows on her, her name is Cricket but I think her real name is Maria Martinez. 

What else?  Oh I don't know.  Life is good. I just started back up at the gym.  Weeeeee. Thats about all. 

Blast from the past

So I think I am funny, no really I am just hilarious. Here is something I wrote in 2008 to a friend.

Don't fly with US.

April 3, 2008

(This was originally an email to someone and I thought I'd post it)

I was in the Phoenix airport, I handed my boarding pass to the security officer and SURPRISE!! I was randomly selected for an additional search (again)! I had once again won the airline lottery! Canceling my last flight and selecting me for an additional search in New York wasn't enough. They wanted to really make me love flying.
I was put in a funny little glass room with three clear glass walls and a door. I thought to myself, not for the first time, why do you need a door on a three walled room, why not make four walls and two doors? Or better yet why not just have no walls and no door and just have me sit down in a chair because it would seem to me that it is extremely easy to escape from a room with three walls.
I look up and see an aging punk rocker about 30 feet away "locked" in a room like mine. We point and laugh and he starts flipping everyone (except me) off. We are both visibly laughing at our captors.
A woman comes to the door. She opens it and has me follow her and my belongings being carried by three security officers. I skip along behind them because there is no reason for me to take the situation seriously. The worst thing I have on me is some crappy tasting airborne (apple cider flavor). They take all my things out of my carry on, purse and laptop bag. They also run some weird little cloth all over everything.
A security officer who is young and pretty with long blond hair asks me to step onto a carpet with feet prints on it and put my arms out to my sides, parallel to the floor. As she does this and tries to demonstrate it she flings her arms out quickly and smashes her fellow security officer in the face, to my delight.
The punk rocker is standing next to me and we all laugh. They sort of stop being jerks and I start putting my shoes and sweater back on. While I am doing this she is now trying to open my laptop. Backwards. I explain she had it backwards and it's okay I even do it once in a while. She says 'thank you for saying that in front of everyone' and gives me things. I got a gold star. I am not sure what it means but I am hoping it means my next flight won't be canceled and cost me another 100.00 in unexpected hotels.
My flight was not canceled but my plane was falling apart. I was on this smaller type of plane that sat two people two a row and it must have been 30 years old. It was literally taped together all around me. I thought this is it I am going to die on this crappy airplane with this crappy airline that has made my travel hellish. I commented on the tape coming off the panels above me and even stood up and fixed it which had the people on the plane laughing (nervously). Then my flying companion pointed out that we could be on the airplane next to us. We all looked out our tiny little portholes at a much older much scarier looking plane and laughed again. The flight attendant glared at me, but I made it to Medford alive.
So let me sum it up. Don't fly with US. US airways sucks.

I'm deranged.

Or at least it feels that way when I log in and type all this stuff down to myself once in a while.  Actually it's so sporadic I am not sure I could even call it once in a while!  Soooo whats new?

I am working two jobs, yep working my butt off, saving money and trying to wait out a process necessary for Robert to get down here with me so we can both live in Portland.  We both love it there so much and I cannot wait until I can get back up there.

So I am working a lot lately, sometimes I get only a few hours a sleep a day but I just keep telling myself it will pay off later!!!

Julianna moved in with me and Gwynneth moved down to New Orleans and is now living with Mike.  Hmmm..... yeah that's it for now.  Life is tiring but wonderful!!

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Well I am almost done with school. If I can pass this math class anyway. I have a C right now so I think I can pull it off. :P

Grandpa Don died Tuesday, the family was there to say goodbye. I am officially grandparent-less. Oh I now feel the regret of not visiting enough. :( Well I suppose that is normal.

I bought a new car. A Honda, it is a project car. That was unintentional but someone sold me a car and long story short it has enough problems to officially be a project car! :P I had to replace the cv axle and the transmission, brake rotors and engine mount are next. :P Got it painted too, just temporary paint job but it is one color now haha! YES! I love my little car though so cute. BUt I have decided I am not allowed to buy a car on my own now haha. :P

Ok lets try that again, that last post sounded sorta negative. Seriously I have a lot of great things in life. I just went on a fun trip to San Francisco. I smoked my hookah I bought there today and it was peaches! LOL. Went to Alcatraz FINALLY! It was pretty cool, maybe not as cool as I imagined. But still cool to be in a famous prison. I over spent in Japan town and stayed in a neat anime themed hotel called Tomo. I ate awesome food at awesome places. I didn't study for my math test and failed it Oops!! I made a new friend who I went on my trip with and he is a really nice person and I thank him for joining the mini vacation. I have made a habit out of vacations with friends hahaha. Hey I said I wanted to LIVE life and so far this has proved to be a super fun way to go about it.
 Plus I make some really great friends so far, I mean people I believe I can remain true friends with. And that's hard to do in this world, well maybe not but it seems that way. I can't wait till I land my dream job and can take my friends on pay back vacations!!! Sometimes you just really gel with someone and there was something about them I really value as a friend. Speaking of that concept, isn't it nice when someone just "gets" you?
Okay well UPDATE everyone I have met has turned out to be a psycho backstabber but Robert but honestly that little bit at the end was all about him anyway lolol.

Well I am on my last term at school and everything is not going as planned as usual. -_-. Had plans to get a job and move in April but everything is going haywire so it looks like I am stuck in the pit of despair for a few months. Finding a job here really freaks me out because everyone knows employment opportunities are not so great nor is the pay scale. I have to pass college algebra to graduate but unfortunately I have a solid D in this class so I am mega freaked out I wont graduate on time either. I am sure it will all work out! I mean life has a way of continuing no matter what you do. :) Thank Buddha! Anyway, just a quick update. Yay!

Destination Unknown......

Well not really, but yes really. I would love to have a solid plan but if I did I wouldn't be me. :) I feel a little freaked out about school ending and then having to go for it in any strange city I end up in, I hope its Portland so it won't be so strange. Wait, lol Portland not strange? Did I just say that? Then again its strangeness is likely what I find so comforting, I mean I can't think of many cities like Portland. I struggle with the fear of the great unknown I guess. What will I get to do? Hmmm the possibilities are limitless....but I am not so sure the choices will be ;).

NEW DIRECTIVES

I have now adjusted my goals. I have decided I need to change my life. I will finish school within the next 6 months. While doing this I will get a job and save a lot of money. After I graduate I will try to find a job in Portland and then upon getting this job I will move to Portland and livehappily ever after. True story.... I hope.

update  09/01/2013:
Nope.  But you got a decent job, so chin up buttercup. 

Vacation from heaven!
I just spent almost 2 full weeks running around Las Vegas and Portland. It was like I had died and gone to fun for once.
This would have not been possible without my very nice friend Robert, to whom I will always think very fondly of. He was a sweetheart.

Well I am sure he still is, it's not like he is dead. Unfortunately he lives in Canada so I can't really kick it with my super cool friend easily haha.

We had a lot of super epic and not so epic adventures, he got to hear about my feet hurting WAY to much but in the end I believe it was a VERY good time, in fact I will say the greatest trip I have had yet and will probably remain in the top 3 of my lifetime. If it doesn't then my life is going to get way more kick-ass, just sayin!!
We went to Vegas and explored the strip and Fremont St. We played video games together at a video lounge bar called insert coins (which was way fun).

We went and saw the Grand Canyon and the Hoover Dam. We saw tons of things we didn't expect to see, like the weird shoe tree on the way back to Reno. We laughed so much it was criminal and ate and drank and we were living it up. We stayed in a swank ass suite in the Hard Rock hotel and really had a good time.

IN Portland we stayed in a really fun boutique hotel called Jupiter and it came with chalkboard doors and earplugs and condoms on the night stand haha, it was quirky and fun and oh so Portland.

We ate the Le Bistro Montage and I got to take home my leftovers in the shape of an elegant tinfoil kitty cat. ;) We went to the city of books and the 24 hour church of Elvis, we had a fight on Burnside bridge. We laughed at people in a divy karaoke bar and watch strippers together. We played with a million video games at Game On 2.0 @ OMSI.

We did everything with style and when we didn't have that we did it with our weird sense of humor and still had fun. Overall it was magic and I am glad I shared it with someone I didn't know very well haha, it makes the memory stand out even more. So, Robert thank you for the time of my life.

There are strange things afoot, in my head at night; well at least I got to eat some Kimchi in my dream. No wait! I didn't I had to give it away to Bret and Jermaine from Flight of the Conchords. What? My old friend Melissa was married to some old Asian guy and I offered to bring the rest of my Kimchi over for house guests that were arriving. In the meantime I had never really interacted with Melissa because she was outside pouring concrete steps. Oh I also dreamt that my friend Rob blew up some power plant where he lived... then he (maybe we?) went to this little market and hung out and there was a hot tub in it and... Bret and Jermaine from flight of the conchords were in the hot tub. Some other stuff happened but its top secret. I have no clue what my brain is plotting but I can pretty much guarantee it is not coming true!

Lets see it has probably been about a half year since my last good ramble. I really don't know because I haven't looked, I am just making it up. Isn't that what we are all doing anyway? Just making it up as we go? I hope you say yes, otherwise I may have been doing this wrong!! EGAD!!! (Oh god).
I love words made up by the British. Without them we wouldn't be able to say "Bloody" in an entirely awesome context. "Oh Bloody hell!" Really, some of the stuff they say is just awesome! Like Bugger, ahaha I rest my case.
I think I have A.D.D. I mean I can't focus for very long. For instance, I began writing this over an hour ago. I totally forgot I was even writing it. Is this just a by product of technological distraction or am I really this bad? Perhaps it's dementia. EGAD!!!
I have forgotten whether there was an original point I was planning on making when I started this. It definitely wasn't meant to be about British slang; whatever works ok? OK!
Oh yes me Me ME!!! I was going to talk about myself!! Where do I find myself during August of 2011? Well, I am glad you asked. Oh you didn't ask! My bad! I am still in school but I hope to finish up early next year. I am still single and mostly loving it. I am not working but should probably change that because I wan't money. :)
Hmmm, I am going to Las Vegas for about a week with an "online" friend. :) If I never return let it be noted that I lived my life to the fullest, lived hard, loved hard, and hopefully died quickly. No regrets!!!

I try to remain a bit vague in this blog and delve to far into my crazy personal life. Sometimes, well actually most of the time it affects my daily functioning far to much. So here I am again making small catastrophes of my life...."tiny explosion" if you will. I don't believe unconditional love exists anymore, in fact I am having a hard time placing faith in the concept of love. Do we love others or just love ourselves with others. I have heard the argument we can only love ourselves and that affects the relationships around us. If this is in fact true then I better figure out how to treat myself with compassion, respect, and kindness. Why do I push away the good people and embrace the horrible ones? With all that said it is a beautiful spring day outside and my heart is hurting and not for the reasons you would suspect.